Too many thoughts in my head....

1) My employer doesn't want me to leave because I'm a valuable employee to the company so they're trying to work out a way so I can work from home and maybe even parttime. I'm not sure what I want to do anymore. It would be kind of hard to try and juggle the kids around with work since Caleb starts 4K in the fall; just mornings 4 days a week. So I'd have to figure out a way to do daycare because the kids couldn't be at home while I'm working and then shuffle Caleb to school too. Even though there are lots of days where I don't like going to work, I really do like the people I work with and I have lots of things I'd still like to do at the bank before I leave. Our new supervisor is really doing a great job to make people feel like their work is really contributing to the company and that she will work to help get them any deserved promotions. (I won't lie, I've had opportunities to move up before... just chose not to pursue them because the hours didn't fit well with my family... and if you know me, my family comes first (well right after God). :-)

2) A good friend might be moving away.... hoping it doesn't happen, but not sure how to prepare myself for it. I feel for her and her family. A job opportunity is within their reach... yet they had just started growing their roots here and settling down. Praying that God makes it clear where He wants them to be. I guess I was secretly hoping we'd live near each other for a long time... become old ladies and eventually grandmas together.

3) I feel like a lazy bum who hasn't been exercising much lately. I don't even feel motivated to get anything done. So jealous of my friends that make time to work out every week. *sigh* I know I don't really have any weight to lose, but I'm not as fit and healthy like I should be. And yes, I have love handles just like any other woman out there. One of these days, I'm going to get my energy back.... maybe once I quit my job? (which goes back to the question of whether or not I should even figure out a way to stay at my job or not)

4) I missed the sun during the past few gray and gloomy days. Maybe that's why there's still a gray cloud over my head. I'm just one of those people that needs sunshine... and LOTS of it. I need to get an attitude adjustment or something so that I can get out of my slump. I'm kind of a crabby person to be around at home. Not very fun. :-(

That's all for now.... I'm not even sure what I'm really thinking anymore. Too many thoughts in my head....